REFLECTIONS FROM MY BED

"EACH DAY, LIFE WILL SEND YOU LITTLE WINDOWS OF OPPORTUNITY. YOUR DESTINY WILL ULTIMATELY BE DEFINED BY HOW YOU RESPOND TO THESE WINDOWS OF OPPORTUNITY"

The truth is that in my former life, I was too busy being a victim and being reactionary on a 24 hour basis, and there was no way that I was going to notice these moments. There were no real Epiphany's.

Definitely I was so mindlessly concerned with receiving that I couldn't wrap my head around the sharing part. Oh I would do a little, I would feel better for a brief moment and then it was back to the MATRIX.

I think that most people are just happy getting all they can, getting and taking as much pleasure that they can.We don't want you to see us this way though. We tend to robotically gravitate towards pleasure and away from pain.

We will smile at you as we silently one-up you behind your back, in the spirit of me, my, mine.

There really are few moments of clarity where we say, perhaps I need to change. (That isn't completely true, some of us come to that point the hard way)

There are many moments when we say, I need to escape the pressure. Let me escape from this vacuous experience tonight any way I can.

The buildup is too much, the accumulated cause and effect is too much. Drugs and Alcohol or Sex and Food, perhaps these things can temporarily buoy us, they have in the past.

The truth is that if we could take away the curtain, we would see that what lies between cause and effect is time, there is no escaping the equation.

These vices will create a black hole if used in a crutch like way, or as a substitution. We know this but there is no stopping us. (Oh really)


I personally am not giving up spicy food or connected sex anytime soon, but it is all about the INTENTION. At least that is what this flawed human being is coming to see.


It seems a little pathetic when we get a little older and lose some of our more ambitious desires, and we just settle. Isn't ageing simply the loss of desire?

We tend to settle for base satisfactions and substitutes are accepted and welcomed. Alcohol and Food and Sex and Cocaine instead of Love, Integrity, Vision, and Playfulness.

I have been guilty of this, I hated myself for it. (Somewhat forgiven) There didn't seem to be any end to this thinking process of bandaid solutions and settling.



As Don Miguel Ruiz says "WE GET DOMESTICATED"


The truth is that 99 percent of the population fear change. They don't want to think about the emotional arc of their lives and how it effects the emotional body of the planet. We simply are not responsible, don't buy into the connections between people and the veiled consequences of their actions.

Down deep, the average guy dosen't really believe in KARMA or what goes around comes around. (if you are happy being average and don't believe a thing I am talking about, that is totally fine as well)

Whatever gets us through, as long as people think that I made a mark. As long as my family is better off and better looking than yours.

It just seems a little scary to me personally, I have seen some dark times, some shortsighted nights, and I don't want to be waking up there again anytime shortly, requesting some warm milk.

Every now and again, some ice-cream and some breast milk would be just fine.

Personal reflection and living more in the moment and breathing is a good start. You don't have to become Mr or Mrs NEW AGE to begin to alter the emotional arc of your life.

Your friends might thankyou, I know mine will, when the anger subsides.