Last year my heart sped up to 180 beats per minute and I checked into the local hospital for 5 days...There were no real answers. Who knows why it happened? Could it still be the drinking...after 4 yrs sober. Scarring of the heart is a possibility
..but they didn't really know...
I got some pills to take that were literally killing me for a few months...Luckily, I am off one of the pills now and can walk down the street again.
After a few financially unsuccessful moves like ...The bios urn...I am turning to possibly performing again...who would have thought?..I am learning a monologue from the movie Kramer vs Kramer. A part embedded into my subconscious after working as an usher in a movie theatre many years ago.
The idea going forward here is....heart will keep beating and I will start working in the film industry as a very small player...small but employed...
I would love to move back to BC...to Vancouver island...One of the most beautiful places on earth..Thus the move.
Watched Liv and Ingmar last night...An absolutely stunning and poignant documentary about two Artists...two geniuses that shared a love affair and a friendship for the ages...
It reminded me that it is ok to love and to create and be honest with yourself and move on if necessary...because life is too short...The final scenes in his old island home on Faro are heartbreaking and life affirming at the same time...I cried...
Maybe its time to see a Swedish movie very soon...after i get home from a couple of days in Algonqin park with an old buddy...
Are we ever sure that we are making the right choices?...I would like to be more sure
..but I will just go with it for now...
Rick
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