BE YOURSELF TONIGHT

I was just rereading a couple of recent posts and my feeling is that I need to strip this entry down a little bit.


Come down off my cozy pedantic cloud and face a little bit of the metaphysical music.


See I really don't enjoy doing it. Let me refrain from using the word "process".


Does anybody in the real working world really fckn care what the difference is
between an allegory and a metaphor?


Maybe. But are they REAL?........



Tonight as I was multitasking watching Vicki Christina Barcelona online and the Football game on TV and researching the Buddhist centre right across the alley from me, (and listening to the Shins) I came to a realization.



(I am not sure if this was before or after I started downloading the original "Night of the Living Dead".)




We all need to keep busy and distracted from the big questions of existence to maintain our equilibrium and a semblance of sanity.



Sure it is necessary to visit that place in your mind, and quite often if you are really brave. (Unless you have tunnel vision and are oblivious)



The best way around this situation is to be in a relationship with a partner that understands you and also understands the big void out there.



Solution. Find a person that likes to enthusiastically search for the mystery, and more than that,
wants to share it directly with YOU.



(No you don't need somebody to complete you......)




It would also be nice if this person had a wonderful, exciting best friend that came along for the ride , just in case that the initial chemistry with your partner wears off.

(This is an attempt at late night humour)



I may have somebody in mind. If I do, may God be with them.



Sometimes I think my sanity is bordering on the truly subjective.
Better than robotic I suppose.





I AM in desperate need of some new exploration though.





New Music. Opera?

An airplane ticket.

A late night rendezvous in the old part of town with a woman with strange Tattoos.

A poetry reading on an Island.

A sweaty Concert.

I am reaching.



A specific tangible involvement in a movement that makes sense like SOLORAID. That sounds plausible.




For now I am semi-content to be aware of all the brutal injustices but be hopeful that the best is yet to come.



In small portions and in moments, but coming soon.

Perhaps it is time to take out an AD.



"Content, confident, driven, and drooling man seeks big adventure and a mysterious woman with big desire"


or



"Are you brilliant, insecure, dynamic, neurotic and a load of laughs?
There is a sensitive ass of a man waiting for you"



For now at the beginning of the long Winter, I will watch some sports, eat some comfort food, and listen to Bryan Ferry.



Settling can become a very dark art that I am beginning to synthesis.




That is the stripped down version for tonight.


RL