A couple of ideas were going around in my monkey mind today. "Constantly living in the residual thoughts of the past is toxic" and "We are made of Stardust" I remember trying to figure out why and how this could possibly be true? I live here in the isolated body, amongst pain and suffering and people hurting from their neurotic daily problems....How could I possibly be made of something as spectacular and cosmis as a star? Well, it is true, how it relates to what tangeant I am going in I am not sure yet though. The reason why, is that Energy can never be created nor destroyed, and everything that ever existed always exists. Our bodies are energy plain and simple, we are all connected, and yes to the stars. Some days however, I just am not feeling it.
I had an idea, if I can't sell my screenplays and my bank account reads zero, I could do something about it. I could either, work in some mindless position and write on the side or perhaps I could form my own company and somehow benefit people that are suffering from addictions.. Now somehow, by putting that energy out there it has happened. I am still not sure how lucrative the compensation is going to be, but if I just hold onto the thought, and this moment and the company name Egoless Mind Ltd...I am feeling very good about this.
Today I created an Ad that will run in a Toronto paper that features a COFFIN and reads....SUBSTANCE ABUSE COST CANADIANS OVER 40 MILLION DOLLARS LAST YEAR (COFFIN) and...IF YOU LOSE YOUR SON OR DAUGHTER, WILL YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT STATISTICS...I don't know, the head cheese here okayed the AD for publication. At the bottom of the AD it say's to suffering people to CALL ME!
Responsibility comes in many strange synchonistic packages, this is one of them.
Tonight,with a couple of days before I leave, the clients were sitting around a campfire holding a seminar on SELF FORGIVENESS... As they were going around offering their pearls of wisdom before this swine, my mind was drifting out into the sky. I hadn't seen a sky that looked so HIGH UP, like KANSAS in THE WIZARD OF OZ. It was truly remarkable. Then they said Rick do you have anything to add........
Something flowed out of my mouth....Taking responsibilty for my life I am on the road to doing that, one day at a time, (they watched) but I said....SELF FORGIVENESS..you try daily, you make progress, and sometimes you fall back. It's a work in progress. What the hell did I say.What kind of shit is that, Oh well. Thankyou RICK.
Who knows, somehow that sky was created along with those weird ass clouds. Maybe this is KANSAS, but you know, I am not in KANSAS anymore.
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