The puzzle is coming together magically...

These images are popping off the screen with my new camera. A little bit of timing and grace and a lot of technology.

Life continues to amaze me here in Taipei. My mother is coming to visit in two weeks which will be her first trip in many years to Asia, She is 74 and has expressed a wish to go on the back of my powerful scooter up the side of the local mountain..and I will carefully oblige. I anticipate her having a great time as long as I do my tour guide job and live with a little compassion.

After all the self help books that never really took me anywhere wonderful, I have come to the realization that nobody out there really knows anything. Nobody knows why we are rotating in space at 1000 miles an hour for absolutely no apparent reason. All the so called experts on meditation and reincarnation actually admit that they have spent many years trying to quiet their minds but haven't really attained it except in spurts. All the so called reasons as to why we are going to come back in a different form by way of Karma or go to heaven and live there like kings etc..all these ideas are pure conjecture and have not basis in fact.

What am I rambling about? We have to find a beautiful distraction or two or three and find a way to live with ourselves in harmony while we are here. This whole journey for us and for everybody throughout history maybe absolutely meaningless. Obviously I agree with the idea of  right action and not actually causing anybody harm while I am here.

However, in the context of finding meaning ...I am very glad to be doing something about it from Taipei, such an unbelievable life journey I am on here. Teaching these kids can be really great some days and the pure independence of this adventure is really the theme for me. I have maybe a good 10 years left of solid work years here and I can go in so many directions from there. Photographs have been a really fun thing. Helps me to not dwell on things like my Defibrillator and my heart issues or my constant battle ( now almost 7 years of Sobriety) with abstinence.

Let me pull a few more pieces of the puzzle together and a few more creative projects and personal relationships and we will have real liftoff of a life that I can actual be proud of after so many years of ..well...shame and sorrow.

Rick

Photographs are saving my life...

I'm obsessing with a full frame 42 MP mirrorless camera that I am going to get.  My photography game has started to become more proficient and I am really enjoying  just becoming immersed in taking some honest, striking images.

Taking these photos helps me forget about my age, or my physical limitations or my lack of real finances.  It is so damn therapeutic its ridiculous. Why didn't I pick up on this in my 20s when we had that darkroom.

Living here in Taipei is grand.  I am working my ass off teaching everyday, but I believe that I am making a difference in some students lives and they are enjoying me on some level.  Most days anyway, when I don't have to be this disgusting Dickens like taskmaster from hell.

I just watched an documentary on Henry Cartier Bresson that was incredibly inspiring.  He was called the most significant photographer of the 20th century and when asked about it he just modestly laughed and said it was just a bullshit label.

This weekend I will go for a train ride and stay over night in a modern hotel on a farm area in the mountains somewhere that I picked out of nowhere.  I am sure the photographs will be mouth watering, although does anybody really want to see another closeup of a tulip or a scenic shot of a mountain?

Its the shot of people that really gets you. You have a visceral reaction to human beings, and I love capturing them up close. Not to Dianne Arbus their asses, but to catch a moment without their ability to put up that mask.

Next week I will travel by high speed train alone to the south of Taiwan for a few days to take a rest and vacation by the beach which will be equally grand.

I have a great girlfriend who is sweet and honest and unpretentious but the issue remains that she is not allowed to travel with a man until she is married. So I will be travelling alone for the time being.

Here is a sample of a photo I shot that I love:

I have really done it

I haven't posted in some time. I have been living a wonderful life here in Taipei. All aspects of my life are going very well. I've worked hard teaching students from the ages of 4 to 13 and although it has had its challenging moments, my school is starting to consider me as a valuable Teacher in their system.

I've got a regular acting gig on live TV here as a CEO of a US skincare line. That's all I can say about it , but it has been a blast. I have been in a commercial as well.

I have also become more proficient at photography and have been working on project I am creating called Fierce Beauty where I have met and been photographing some interesting woman.

I have come in contact with some interesting people, but have been blessed to have met Pauline (that's not her Chinese name) who has been my balanced, honest and sweet friend and confident for six months now. I am very lucky to have her in my life here.

In the beginning I lived with some young Chinese students and shared everything. It was difficult for an older geezer like myself to adjust.  In the early days here there was nothing that was set in stone, I had no idea if I could get the right visa to stay here longer and pass the physical examination that was needed. I wasn't sure where I would work and whether I could sustain an income here. I had no idea man.

Really I just went with my gut in Toronto which said...You have to make a major change in your life man..There might not be much time for adventure left in your little world. I was in a rut and my life consisted of basically going on auditions and doing extra work and smoking great pot all the time. It wasn't very fulfilling to say the least. 

So I took a chance and made a physical move to Asia on a hunch and it has been fantastic. I have earned my own studio on a rooftop of a building near the coveted 101 building and I love my area. My chinese still is awful but I am learning slowly...Very slowly.

I take it one day at a time with gratitude...however I would say that buying self help books and smoking dope but never actually physically making any big moves was not the answer for me. You have to actually make the move.. Do it . 

So life is good. This is the life I was meant to be living. From this place I can figure out the other big questions. Who knows, I may even start my own family at my old age. What a transformation that would be. Lets see how that plays out.

Bye for now.

Rick

It's Working Well....

I'm convinced that all of these self help mantras I've read over the years that spoke about   

manifesting your destiny...ultimately amount to nothing without the absolute key, which is ...take an action.

Make a decision outside of your usual locked in daily thinking and fantastic
results will occur.

Coming back to Taiwan has resulted in amazing moments and feelings of fulfillment. I have been challenged here as original plans and jobs fell through. So what...plan B...

I perservered and moved to Taipei alone and now I am teaching full time and doing acting gigs on the side...
The acting gig I've done three time as a CEO of a skin care line on live tv here has been an absolute blast.

I have a good female friend here who has been an amazing supporter so far and I've been able to battle through some colds and toothaches and fatigue... and amazingly I am still standing.

These are good days! New worlds are starting to open and now I am just waiting for the right visa to come through so I can make a bigger mark.

Life is fresh and surprising again and I am very grateful.

Stay tuned..

Rick