I am an extra in your life

Here are some random things I wrote down on my phone this week:
(A week that featured Hillary Clinton's emails being linked to Anthony Weiner)

We keep trying to arrange our lives and schedules so we can have a "perfect moment" again.
The perfect moment...the perfect view...the perfect meeting or date.
The moments that originally made us feel alive and connected...revisited. Making memories that don't seem to last, except in some vague area of the mind.

There's a whole world out there...of freedoms and environments we have never experienced...people we have never talked to or been influenced by.  There's your new thoughts...waiting in the wings...waiting to take you forward.

These are themes I have touched on before. It fascinates me how every being out there is running their own personal movie in their head where they are the protagonist and star and everybody else is just the cast, and of course you can't really experience more than one reality at a time...

Here is something cool on this that a friend posted today:

Good intentions are the most beautiful of secrets...

Rickxo (running his own movie all the time)

PEACE IN SYRIA OR WORLD WAR 3?

I am extremely concerned about the cold war like tensions between the US and Russia right now. There is an article in the Independent saying the Turkish president has said that we are getting very close to World War 3.

With the whole spectacle that is going on with the presidential race and the mainstream media focusing on whether Trump is really grabbing pussy or not...it is sickening to me that the real danger is creeping up.

What kind of world is this, where we see footage of bombs being dropped on Aleppo and children crying out for their parents with blood dripping off their face.
What are these wars accomplishing? Are we just barbaric animals with no fucking conscience?

I personally have great anxiety when I realize that I have been fighting to stay alive and lead a positive life and that some warmongering generals want to kill off me and all my fellow man as well.

Or there is always the great possibility of an accident. Somebody mistakes  a US plane for a Russian one and the nuclear code is being pushed.  It just absolute insanity.

I feel personally that I have no control of anything that happens in this crazy world.  We can all drop dead at any time, by natural causes or by some catastrophic event generated by who knows what.

A nuclear war would kill millions of people and animals and plants and forests and oceans. Its all just too much to deal with really. 

So for now I will go back to watching a new show Westworld, which deals with facade of meaning in your environment and in the bigger picture. 

What can the meaning possibly be for the children that are being systematically murdered by the war machine? (there is certainly no intervening God watching over these people)

Scary and sickening.

PEACE...